Tuesday, October 22, 2013

The Journey





The Journey

 One day you finally knew 
what you had to do, and began,
though the voices around you
kept shouting
their bad advice—
though the whole house
began to tremble
and you felt the old tug
at your ankles.
"Mend my life!"
each voice cried.
But you didn't stop.
You knew what you had to do,
though the wind pried
with its stiff fingers
at the very foundations,
though their melancholy
was terrible.
It was already late
enough, and a wild night,
and the road full of fallen
branches and stones.
But little by little,
as you left their voices behind,
the stars began to burn
through the sheets of clouds,
and there was a new voice
which you slowly
recognized as your own,
that kept you company
as you strode deeper and deeper
into the world
determined to do
the only thing you could do—
determined to save
the only life you could save.   
~Mary Oliver


These last couple weeks have been filled with so much joy and heartbreak.  Some deep feelings have come up lately that I long thought I buried.  Working through some deep shit here, and asking for all your love and good thoughts as I wade through it.  Feeling a little lost, and as always when that happens I find myself burying my nose in Mary Oliver poems.  Deep, dark truth she spills.  Her words healing and ripping me open all at once.  I know the light is there at the end of the tunnel, and I know I will find it.  But for right now, all I have are tears and a constant lump in my throat.   Broken, wide open.

10 comments:

  1. Oh, hun, know that I am sending so much love to you! It's always difficult to work through the resurfacing of troubled feelings, but in a way, it's also a signal of growth. There's a reason these things are bubbling up like they are, and it never seems apparent initially, but you're bound to understand at some point. I think it's so beautiful you're finding solace in such exquisite words. It feels so good to cry sometimes (and I should know, I do it all the time myself). Feel better, beautiful lady. <3

    M.

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    1. Thank you so much M, I am starting to work through them and starting to feel better. It is amazing all that can come up from one small event. xo

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  2. -hugs hugs- Sending lots of love and light your way dearest, hang in there, you are strong and beautiful, never forget that <3

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    1. Thank you so much sweet Manda, I am trying to remember those things. xo

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  3. one of my very favourite poems! x x x

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    1. Me too Rose, all of hers actually. xo

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  4. ahh being healed and ripped open at once. you captured a great feeling there. lots of love to you hollie!

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  5. Hugs to you....I do not know your journey, nor do I need to. When a hug may help it is simply sent. Sweet blessings to you....

    Maggie

    (maggjoy from Instagram)

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    1. Thank you dear Maggie, I am so glad we have connected, albeit if only virtually. xo

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