Friday, July 5, 2013

The proverbial fan....



The shit has it it.  Over the last few days I have watched something I truly love fall apart.  I've had a front row seat to its demise.  My stomach has felt like I am carrying around bricks.  My heart is heavy with sadness and a deep feeling of loss.  The truth could not be covered up anymore, and a small crack led to a earthquake of epic proportions.  Now that everything is wide open and the light has been shown, there is no turning back.  

This may be only an online group or class to some, but to me it was a place of solace and sisterhood.   A true place to ask and talk about the hard questions.

I will mourn this loss for some time.  I will take solace in the love, and deep connections I have made.  I know some of those will be lifelong, and for that I will be forever grateful.


The one lesson I have learned through this is...trust your gut.  ALWAYS.  When something does not sit with you do not keep pushing it away.  Let it out, shout it if you have to.







10 comments:

  1. Well said. It still amazes me that so many of us were feeling the same thing for so long. Who knew!? Glad to have gone thru this lesson together as a tribe. Only good will come of it.

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    1. It is so crazy that we were all feeling the same way. I am so happy we all went through it together and all came out on the other side together. The new group feels safe and true.

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  2. I've no idea what's going on, however I can understand what you're feeling and I am so sorry for any losses you and others have experienced! I hope, in the future, somehow someway, good will come from whatever happened. <3

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    1. Thank you so much Angie. It was heartbreaking at first, but so much good has already come of it. I really feel like it was meant to happen.

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  3. I had no idea so many people were having so many of the same concerns I was. I hate that it fell apart the way it did, but I do feel less alone in feeling the way I did about it all now. xo

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    1. Isn't it crazy Meghann?! I guess the one lesson we all learned is to speak up and go with our guts. I feel like our new group is such a happy place, I am pretty convinced this was all meant to be so we could all grow stronger together. xo

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